Picture Prefect Memory

This is a blessing and curse all in one. Alhamdulilah I have a really good memory. It's really hard for me to forget things especially when it comes to people I love. I still remember the day I met Farida and I was only 7 years old! I remember her coming over with her family for the first time and spending the night because we didn't want to stop playing.

I remember the first night I met Bayan at a Ramadan dinner, not having a clue what kind of friendship would grow throughout the next two years. I remember the first time I really had a conversation with Rudy while manning an AAI table and falling in love with her amazing personality and love for life. I remember so many insane moments Nana and I shared growing up, having no idea how drastically our lives would change 10 years down the road. I remember my first day of college when I ran into Saadia (who I hated in a pervious life haha) again not knowing we would later form the C-Unit and I would be bridesmaid at her wedding. I remember family vacations, birthday, weddings, first loves, crazy high school/college times and so much more.

The issue with this is that sometimes I want to forget. Sometime my picture perfect memory gets the best of me and I am overwhelmed with sadness when I remember old friends or people I have shared amazing things with who are no longer part of my life. No matter how hard I would like to forget, I can't.

Bayan and I had this conversation the other day, because she never remembers anything...and I was shocked at how different our outlooks are. There are seriously some moments in life I could never forget. I could tell you where I was, what I was doing, what the people were wearing and most defiantly the year and month it happened. I know, its sick! Some people can only remember really important memories, but what seems to be a big deal to me is not such a big deal to others. Sometimes I think it's going to be the death of me. My Mom will forever tell people not to argue with me when it comes to old memories because I will always be right! (Sarah is always right, that has a ring to it)

I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind a few weeks ago. For those of you who don't know the movie is about a couple that undergo a procedure to erase each other from their memories when their relationship goes bad, but soon come to find "You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story."

There are so many people who have walked in and out of my life but have left a lasting impression, there are others who have walked in and out of my life who I would like to erase but I have come to learn at the end of the day our memories makes us who we are and you can't change the past. So going forward I wont try to forget old memories but rather realize how lucky am I to be able to hold on to so much. I will cherish the good and learn from the bad and will hopefully be a better person for it.